The Second Phase of the Moon

As it turns I cannot see
What it is that it holds dearly
A pearl upon the deep black sky
A whitered old yellow eye


And it turns once again
Far away from the golden rays
A new beginning comes to dawn
Only to reveal its true black bond


With the dead and buried deep
Old wounds surface bleeding free
All the eyes look away
Only the darkness now remains


Who would ever know
That this is how it would go
Growing up towards the light
Who knew what lay beyond
Was just a dark black velvet void


And now we've come here today
All our hopes gone astray
Forever more we want to hold
To the things we let go


Come away from the sun
Close your eyes
The new phase has begun
Doesn't matter if you can't see
All you need is to just believe


Find your breath and hold on tight
Here's a ride that's sure to give you a fright
But never fear
For my dear,
It turns again and makes it clear


A foggy haze you must wade
To reach the shores another day
Today you shed another tear
But only to smile on the other side


So turn around and turn again
Phase in and out with all your faith
The dark blue moon will be bright once more
Making you stronger than ever before. 

The Universe

I belong in this world. I am here as a human with a physical body and a consciousness and an ability to contemplate my existence and presence.


While I am part of a larger universe and we are all made of star stuff and are essentially one and the same being, all moving towards an eternal circle of life, recycling and being reborn as rearranged atoms and molecules with a life form powered by a soul, we are still parts. And we must take care of these individual parts in order to take care of the whole. So if I want to change the world, I have to change myself. If I want to heal the world, I have to heal myself. Knowing that taking care of myself is a part of contributing to the universe helps me understand my own importance. I am no more or less important than anything else in this universe. I am the universe and 'I' am nothing. But I exist as an "I" and I live and experience as an "I" but also as we and us, and the point is to nurture the soul through all these multiple ways of experiencing and existing.
That is why, my body is a temple but it is also a machine that can serve. My mind is a creator and site of exchange of ideas. My soul is the residence of my unique light but also a link in the chain that unites us all. Hence, I will take care of my body by bathing, cleaning, being hygienic, eating fresh healthy food, exercising and relaxing. I will nourish my mind by thinking, reading, learning, talking, writing, listening, painting, singing, observing and experiencing. I will nourish my soul by feeling, loving, trusting and being. I am a part and I am a whole. It is ambiguous and the more I think about it the more illogical it seems but it is the truth and truth and logic are not one and the same. I am a part and I am a whole. And the whole is greater than the sum of the parts. Which is why, I will nourish the whole by loving, listening, learning, creating, and teaching the parts around me and uniting the forces of energy that flows between all of us and all things in this universe. It is to a common home we all belong. We are the home. And I am at home. Peace is how we can keep our home clean and love is how we can make it sparkle. You are me and I am you. 'You' are nothing and 'I' am nothing because we are all the same being. But you and I exist as you and I, but it is in our nature to unite, to come together and be, as one, and as a part, in Balance. A balance between being I and we. A core of nothingness surrounded a blanket of I, and swirls of we all around it, creates a perfect spiral of soulful harmony. One that is beautiful, and radiant. Like you and I. Because we are the universe.

Fear

There is an amount of fear associated with all our emotions. Whatever we may experience, we seem to be experiencing it with a sense of fear attached to it.  Be it happiness, where we fear that it won't last, or sadness, where we are afraid that it will consume us and cause us pain. It is the fear that causes the pain in us.  When we are afraid, we are uncertain and when we are uncertain, we are insecure. When we are insecure, we undertake attempts to move towards security, frantically searching all around us, instead of looking within us. For, this security actually lies within. If we accept the emotion as it is and allow ourselves to feel it, without fearing it, we will find that it will pass and a new emotion takes over. But if each of our emotions are associated with fear- fear that it is short lived, fear that it is eternal, fear that makes us inferior, as in the case of jealousy, fear that we will not be treated justly, as in the case of anger, and the fear of fear itself- we live in a constant state of fear. Instead, we must embrace the emotion without being afraid of it. Happiness is a light feeling that brings hope, sadness is a heavy feeling that slows you down, makes you reconsider life and helps you grow, anger is an intense feeling that reflects what you are passionate about, and jealousy is a churning feeling that reflects to you your strengths and weaknesses,while fear prepares you for action.  
Hence, these emotions must be felt in their entirety without fearing them. It is not to say that each of these emotions are mutually exclusive, and that they include only the feelings mentioned here. Instead, it means that we must accept all our emotions as they are, and as we feel them, and not fear them. If you feel afraid, then be afraid. But do not be afraid that you are afraid. If you are happy, be happy. Do not wonder when you will be sad again. If you are sad, do not lose hope that you can never be okay again. If you are angry, count to ten and release your anger.  Do not be afraid that you will be judged for showing your anger and branded as a harsh person. If you are jealous, accept that your own insecurities are making you feel this way, and reflect on who you are. Do not fear an emotion that's on its way. Welcome it with open arms, be a good host, and hug it on its way out, knowing that you will see it again, and when you do, it will no longer be an acquaintance, but an old friend.

FEEL

WARMTH

A strange warm dizzy feeling envelops me as I see him build himself to go back..to go back and face the world. A strange fire spreads across my limbs and burns in my stomach, churning and giddying. Always wanting more from a world that doesn’t exist, always wanting to belong to a place that can never be reached. A fantasy that slips through those long sweaty fingers which dig deep into the cushions of an unbearable reality.

"Why do we fall Bruce? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up."

Fallen in a pit of deep sorrow, one that beckons you gently and traps you enticingly to stay and make you want to never leave the comfort of the warm solace that darkness brings, warmth that deceives you, warmth that only makes you shiver.

The warmth of conviction can never said but only felt. That frenzy between your eyes, the fire to sustain, the need to stay above, even with your feet kicking aimlessly below, can only be born out of strife and pain, one that is endured even without a face of hope.

It spreads through me, bowing its head low before rising high above and towering over all else. A bow mistaken for submission and defeat but one must lose in order to win. One must fall in order to fly. 

WAITING

Tapping my feet
Drumming my fingers
Anxiously looking around
For signs of a future
Happening that will never come
The hair is thrown back again into a bun

The frozen hand refuses to move
Around the time which never stays
Flickering lights
Anxious stares
Crawling up into space
Am just writing Shit
I don't care
Because all that I was
is all I ll ever be
and now its all gone into the wind
carried away with the dried flowers and leaves
I'm trying to sound elegant,oh would just listen please?
but all I want to do is
just get the words to come out
Stuff them up with feelings
season them with tears
polish them with obscurity
and present it like a dish
of that terrible fish that can never be understood
Yes its Sylvia Plath's expression that I have put to use
Hold up a mirror and see
See past the melancholic look in your eyes
Can you see the ugly fat lie?
or can you see beautiful gardens that u painted in your mind's eye?
It is not what you seek but what you desire
But is not what you desire what you seek?
then the world would be happy wouldn't it not?
Since happiness is what we seek?
But alas my dear, no, you're mistaken coz it is the truth that we desire

A blissful moment ruined by reason
A terrible attempt to capture and behold
For eternity we say
But who will ever know an eternity if we all aren't here to stay?

A friendly smile
A graceful hug
And protective pat
And a humble bow

Fate moves you through
Tugging you along paths you never knew
Steps on you when you soar
Pushes you up when you lag

A wonderful rainbow you see
Up above the world so high
There are no diamonds in the sky

Just scattered memories to bear
Consolations of solace

We need and we have but we want and we want
But never shall we receive more than what we shall need

A poor man once said
The rich belong to the dead
The poor man did die
But of diseases that can never be seen by the eye

The mind plagues all
Playing deceiving tricks
It is all a sleight of hand
Illusions created to help us stand
In this crowd of misery
Insignificant and small
A small tiny speck
That is all
You ever were and ever will be

In a sea of souls which float,
Ebb and flow according to His will
But He is a mere witness
Who blinks occasionally

Some shine some glow
Yet others darken as they grow
But all a part of this ocean
Tiny drops of flesh and blood
Floating above
Waiting to be born
Waiting to move on
Waiting as the sun and moon to see each other's face
Waiting for their curses,boons and
Their cures and they soon
Will move
But will be back again in the same loop
Always waiting to move
But never moving
Always waiting..
And waiting...
And waiting...........

ARIEL :-)