A shot and a high pitched scream
Is all you can hear
But not the force of the fall
Even though your near
Eyes wide open
Nostrails flaring
Cud'nt complete exhaling
As he drew his last breath
A fallen hero he stands
Reduced to an urn of ashes
Buried Below the ground
But you can't bury those memories
That haunt you dusk to dawn
A folded flag is all she gets
To remind her of what he did
Each time he was away
But now she has no one to await
Just an empty side of the bed
Someone somewhere weeps
Howls with sorrow
Cannot find the strength
To move on and live,
How can you when
She just fell
Right before your eyes
Even before you could realise
She was taken away from you
But now that she is gone
How can you be you?
Somewhere in the cold they whimper
No one to throw a blanket over
No one to love or be loved
Walking around like corpses
No one to notice whether they exist
No one to know they ever lived
Human lives reduced to tears
Some are mourned and grieved
Some a fly's feast
All the glories of the past
Only some songs are sung
But nothing ever lasts
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Inspired By A Thousand Years-9
I saw you burn and bleed
My small eyes couldn't read
The pain echoing through you
As you sat there endlessly
Head in you hands
Tears in your eyes
All you wanted was an escape
I now understand
'cause I am sitting here now
Head my hands
Tears in my eyes
All I want is an escape
From you.
You taunted me with your stupid lies
I trusted everything I saw of you
But you never let me be me
I hated you and I still do
You took away my ignorance
And now that I'm aware
I can't ever erase
What I ve seen and what I ve heard
But then again
If it wernt for you
I wudnt be this today
Alive
I guess I knew all along
That you do love me
Even though sometimes you hate me
And I know now
That even though sometimes I hate you
I will always love you
My small eyes couldn't read
The pain echoing through you
As you sat there endlessly
Head in you hands
Tears in your eyes
All you wanted was an escape
I now understand
'cause I am sitting here now
Head my hands
Tears in my eyes
All I want is an escape
From you.
You taunted me with your stupid lies
I trusted everything I saw of you
But you never let me be me
I hated you and I still do
You took away my ignorance
And now that I'm aware
I can't ever erase
What I ve seen and what I ve heard
But then again
If it wernt for you
I wudnt be this today
Alive
I guess I knew all along
That you do love me
Even though sometimes you hate me
And I know now
That even though sometimes I hate you
I will always love you
Inspired By A Thousand Years-8
You can't cut where you bleed
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you
There's something inside my head
A battle raging, a million dead
Thoughts I never knew
Makes you feel like you're new
To yourself and everything else
You believed to be true
You can't cut where you bleed
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you
A million oppositions stand
Against you, I can't fight
Even if means to lose myself
I'd loose me than you
But who am I?
And who the hell are you?
You can't cut where you bleed
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you
We are in an endless chase
Inside this never ending maze
No way out but which way did we come in?
We will never know the end
Untill it comes but till then
We have no end to this war
All we know is that it starts
You can't cut where you bleed
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you
But you can cut what you feel
Hide when it bleeds
Try to run even though you won't get far
But you can't runaway from you.
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you
There's something inside my head
A battle raging, a million dead
Thoughts I never knew
Makes you feel like you're new
To yourself and everything else
You believed to be true
You can't cut where you bleed
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you
A million oppositions stand
Against you, I can't fight
Even if means to lose myself
I'd loose me than you
But who am I?
And who the hell are you?
You can't cut where you bleed
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you
We are in an endless chase
Inside this never ending maze
No way out but which way did we come in?
We will never know the end
Untill it comes but till then
We have no end to this war
All we know is that it starts
You can't cut where you bleed
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you
But you can cut what you feel
Hide when it bleeds
Try to run even though you won't get far
But you can't runaway from you.
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Inspired By A Thousand Years-7
SITTING ON THE EDGE
I did what it takes
To make you feel alright
Spent sleepness nights
Talking till the morning light
Listened and soothed
Did the best I could
To make you feel good
About yourself
About everyone else
But now the time has come
For me to go
To look inside
For a while
But you pulled me back
Held me tight
Made me promise
To always fight
On your side
And I did
Hugged you back
Gave everything I had
And even what I didn't
Just to make you smile
Even If it is for a while
We all want forever
But nothing ever lasts
I was all that I had
But now that's lost
In a spiral of fears
I can't hold back these tears
I wish you knew
I was just like you
Another human
With a lost soul
But now am lost
Neither a human
Nor a wandering soul
Not at rest
Not at peace
Merely Something in between
It is alien to you
This feat
Never seen
That I too could be
Exsiting than living
And it is alien for you
To sacrifice
Lend you hand
And save someone From slipping
Sitting on the edge
I glance,at the infinte dark space below
And the vast stretch of land
But nowhere do I see your hand
Sitting on the edge
I can't decide
Do I jump Or do I fly
Or just run and hide
Sitting on the edge
I can't feel
My heavy heart
Or my weary feet
Sitting on the edge
I silently cry
Look down and across
Hoping to see
But there is only
indesicive darkness around me.
I did what it takes
To make you feel alright
Spent sleepness nights
Talking till the morning light
Listened and soothed
Did the best I could
To make you feel good
About yourself
About everyone else
But now the time has come
For me to go
To look inside
For a while
But you pulled me back
Held me tight
Made me promise
To always fight
On your side
And I did
Hugged you back
Gave everything I had
And even what I didn't
Just to make you smile
Even If it is for a while
We all want forever
But nothing ever lasts
I was all that I had
But now that's lost
In a spiral of fears
I can't hold back these tears
I wish you knew
I was just like you
Another human
With a lost soul
But now am lost
Neither a human
Nor a wandering soul
Not at rest
Not at peace
Merely Something in between
It is alien to you
This feat
Never seen
That I too could be
Exsiting than living
And it is alien for you
To sacrifice
Lend you hand
And save someone From slipping
Sitting on the edge
I glance,at the infinte dark space below
And the vast stretch of land
But nowhere do I see your hand
Sitting on the edge
I can't decide
Do I jump Or do I fly
Or just run and hide
Sitting on the edge
I can't feel
My heavy heart
Or my weary feet
Sitting on the edge
I silently cry
Look down and across
Hoping to see
But there is only
indesicive darkness around me.
Inspired By A Thousand Years-6
PATH OF A TEAR
A
Tear drop
Ran across my brow
Tried to wipe it but
It refused to go
It
Ran from
My heart sealed
The one I concealed
Vowed to never show
But
It can't
Remain hidden where
Its No longer safe
Broke free from the chains
That
I made
The control fades
Begins it's escapade
Flows on and on
And
On again
I wish I could regain
My power over them
But tonight I can't
I
Sit and
Weep in pain
Kick and complain
I wish I could lock
Myself
Away from this
Away from you
Away from everthing that knew
About
This disease
An illness, a frenzy
That won't go
But continues to flow
On
And on
And on again
A
Tear drop
Ran across my brow
Tried to wipe it but
It refused to go
It
Ran from
My heart sealed
The one I concealed
Vowed to never show
But
It can't
Remain hidden where
Its No longer safe
Broke free from the chains
That
I made
The control fades
Begins it's escapade
Flows on and on
And
On again
I wish I could regain
My power over them
But tonight I can't
I
Sit and
Weep in pain
Kick and complain
I wish I could lock
Myself
Away from this
Away from you
Away from everthing that knew
About
This disease
An illness, a frenzy
That won't go
But continues to flow
On
And on
And on again
Inspired By A Thousand Years-5
Am I in denial?
Or moving beyond the subliminal?
A strange bird flies across
Is it the lucky albratross
Or the black crow
That brings deep sorrow?
Is it something I should share?
Or a secret that I should make you swear?
The battle rages
Like that of the two fish
Tied by their fins
Are they knots of valor
Or of cowardice?
Life is a struggle each day
A new horn is blown
A new mask is worn
UnLike the flower that blooms
And perishes at night
This refuses to evade
Forces you to draw out that blade
From that ill kept sheath
But, If u could draw comfort from this sheet
Slash your hands across fluidly
The words pour out effortlessly
The pain, the sorrow
The joy and the happy hollow
The frozen ice breaks
Flows through your heart
Mends and heals
This is more than real
As The stars impatiently twinkle
You put to rest your mind that was once fickle
Because You now know you won your struggle
Each day we all fight
Day and night
But like the pheonix we rise
Reborn from the ashes of our past life
Even if we close our eyes
And never see the morning light
The battles' victory
And our legacy
Will be borne in our hearts for eternity
Or moving beyond the subliminal?
A strange bird flies across
Is it the lucky albratross
Or the black crow
That brings deep sorrow?
Is it something I should share?
Or a secret that I should make you swear?
The battle rages
Like that of the two fish
Tied by their fins
Are they knots of valor
Or of cowardice?
Life is a struggle each day
A new horn is blown
A new mask is worn
UnLike the flower that blooms
And perishes at night
This refuses to evade
Forces you to draw out that blade
From that ill kept sheath
But, If u could draw comfort from this sheet
Slash your hands across fluidly
The words pour out effortlessly
The pain, the sorrow
The joy and the happy hollow
The frozen ice breaks
Flows through your heart
Mends and heals
This is more than real
As The stars impatiently twinkle
You put to rest your mind that was once fickle
Because You now know you won your struggle
Each day we all fight
Day and night
But like the pheonix we rise
Reborn from the ashes of our past life
Even if we close our eyes
And never see the morning light
The battles' victory
And our legacy
Will be borne in our hearts for eternity
Inspired By A Thousand Years-4
s that all it's going to be?
A battle between anticipation and acceptance?
The violent sea splashes across
The unstable rocks
Of the mind
Uproots those doubts
That feed like fleas on the flesh
A stench of a decaying corpse
Fills my lungs
Is this what I've become?
If it is,
Then what is it?
A dry fever
A spell of madness
Am I the dark
Or am I the light?
Even if I choose
Who is to know
What the future beholds
Is that hope
To give up
Or to retain?
Is that the thought to hold on
And Reclaim?
Or let go and label insane?
Does it matter what we choose
Does it matter what we do
Or do these questions seem obtuse?
It matters not what you think
It matters not what you say
It matters not what you do
Your story has been written for you
But why then, is it yours?
Why then, is it different from mine?
Because what is mine, is not yours
Your expectations are mere writings on the sand
Washed away by the tides on land
My life is not for you to lead
Never was, never will be
I may not know what to believe
But I do know I can choose my beliefs
And so I choose
The bright yellow sun
Over the greying clouds
The purple orchids
Over the drying grass
The tasty wind and the salty sea
The white sands and the buzzing bee
The rainbows and the rain
Drizzle and tickle
My endless smiles
For the first time in my life
I choose life
For the first time in my life
I live more than I die
A battle between anticipation and acceptance?
The violent sea splashes across
The unstable rocks
Of the mind
Uproots those doubts
That feed like fleas on the flesh
A stench of a decaying corpse
Fills my lungs
Is this what I've become?
If it is,
Then what is it?
A dry fever
A spell of madness
Am I the dark
Or am I the light?
Even if I choose
Who is to know
What the future beholds
Is that hope
To give up
Or to retain?
Is that the thought to hold on
And Reclaim?
Or let go and label insane?
Does it matter what we choose
Does it matter what we do
Or do these questions seem obtuse?
It matters not what you think
It matters not what you say
It matters not what you do
Your story has been written for you
But why then, is it yours?
Why then, is it different from mine?
Because what is mine, is not yours
Your expectations are mere writings on the sand
Washed away by the tides on land
My life is not for you to lead
Never was, never will be
I may not know what to believe
But I do know I can choose my beliefs
And so I choose
The bright yellow sun
Over the greying clouds
The purple orchids
Over the drying grass
The tasty wind and the salty sea
The white sands and the buzzing bee
The rainbows and the rain
Drizzle and tickle
My endless smiles
For the first time in my life
I choose life
For the first time in my life
I live more than I die
Inspired By A Thousand Years-3
I can still hear the screams
Of a tortured soul
Ringing in my ears
Shivering from the cold
The cracking of broken bottles
Each step bled
Out a new pain
A new sorrow
I can still smell the tears
Covered in the exhausted sweat
Of a worn out body
Wavering and tired of screaming
Each drop glistening like pearls of ice
I can still taste the blood
Of an undeserving scar
Slashed fiercely across
My raging heart
Tickling and burning
As the brezze hums over it
I can still feel the needles pricking
Blacking me out with numbness
Questiong my lifeless existence
Neither your senses nor your lies
Soothes or consoles
I don't know what I am looking for
Kicking against the forceful current
Searching for a way out
Or for a way in?
Nothing can take away
The scare that lonliness brings
Or the pathetic laugh and devilsh grin
Of the refelection I see
A complete stranger to me
The locks of hair in my fists
The clenched teeth
All refuse to bring
Any solace to this hellish thing
Curled into a ball
Sobbing
Hoping
Planning
Belabouring
Morning eventually dawns
Bringing a new anticipation of doom
New set of fears
Néw kind of pain
Waiting for the night once again
An endless dance begins
To the tune of frienzed drums
Playing from my thoughts
Back and forth I swing
Swril, twist and slide
It's always the same echoing
Many nights have passed since
Without these rituals
A calm has settled in
Is it a calm before a Strom?
Will I sustain my new form?
No more sceaming, tears, sweat and blood
But only the occassional murmurings
Of what used to be
Bursting from underneath
Claiming to be the truth
But I decide, I choose
Which to claim as real and true.
Of a tortured soul
Ringing in my ears
Shivering from the cold
The cracking of broken bottles
Each step bled
Out a new pain
A new sorrow
I can still smell the tears
Covered in the exhausted sweat
Of a worn out body
Wavering and tired of screaming
Each drop glistening like pearls of ice
I can still taste the blood
Of an undeserving scar
Slashed fiercely across
My raging heart
Tickling and burning
As the brezze hums over it
I can still feel the needles pricking
Blacking me out with numbness
Questiong my lifeless existence
Neither your senses nor your lies
Soothes or consoles
I don't know what I am looking for
Kicking against the forceful current
Searching for a way out
Or for a way in?
Nothing can take away
The scare that lonliness brings
Or the pathetic laugh and devilsh grin
Of the refelection I see
A complete stranger to me
The locks of hair in my fists
The clenched teeth
All refuse to bring
Any solace to this hellish thing
Curled into a ball
Sobbing
Hoping
Planning
Belabouring
Morning eventually dawns
Bringing a new anticipation of doom
New set of fears
Néw kind of pain
Waiting for the night once again
An endless dance begins
To the tune of frienzed drums
Playing from my thoughts
Back and forth I swing
Swril, twist and slide
It's always the same echoing
Many nights have passed since
Without these rituals
A calm has settled in
Is it a calm before a Strom?
Will I sustain my new form?
No more sceaming, tears, sweat and blood
But only the occassional murmurings
Of what used to be
Bursting from underneath
Claiming to be the truth
But I decide, I choose
Which to claim as real and true.
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