The Second Phase of the Moon

As it turns I cannot see
What it is that it holds dearly
A pearl upon the deep black sky
A whitered old yellow eye


And it turns once again
Far away from the golden rays
A new beginning comes to dawn
Only to reveal its true black bond


With the dead and buried deep
Old wounds surface bleeding free
All the eyes look away
Only the darkness now remains


Who would ever know
That this is how it would go
Growing up towards the light
Who knew what lay beyond
Was just a dark black velvet void


And now we've come here today
All our hopes gone astray
Forever more we want to hold
To the things we let go


Come away from the sun
Close your eyes
The new phase has begun
Doesn't matter if you can't see
All you need is to just believe


Find your breath and hold on tight
Here's a ride that's sure to give you a fright
But never fear
For my dear,
It turns again and makes it clear


A foggy haze you must wade
To reach the shores another day
Today you shed another tear
But only to smile on the other side


So turn around and turn again
Phase in and out with all your faith
The dark blue moon will be bright once more
Making you stronger than ever before. 

The Universe

I belong in this world. I am here as a human with a physical body and a consciousness and an ability to contemplate my existence and presence.


While I am part of a larger universe and we are all made of star stuff and are essentially one and the same being, all moving towards an eternal circle of life, recycling and being reborn as rearranged atoms and molecules with a life form powered by a soul, we are still parts. And we must take care of these individual parts in order to take care of the whole. So if I want to change the world, I have to change myself. If I want to heal the world, I have to heal myself. Knowing that taking care of myself is a part of contributing to the universe helps me understand my own importance. I am no more or less important than anything else in this universe. I am the universe and 'I' am nothing. But I exist as an "I" and I live and experience as an "I" but also as we and us, and the point is to nurture the soul through all these multiple ways of experiencing and existing.
That is why, my body is a temple but it is also a machine that can serve. My mind is a creator and site of exchange of ideas. My soul is the residence of my unique light but also a link in the chain that unites us all. Hence, I will take care of my body by bathing, cleaning, being hygienic, eating fresh healthy food, exercising and relaxing. I will nourish my mind by thinking, reading, learning, talking, writing, listening, painting, singing, observing and experiencing. I will nourish my soul by feeling, loving, trusting and being. I am a part and I am a whole. It is ambiguous and the more I think about it the more illogical it seems but it is the truth and truth and logic are not one and the same. I am a part and I am a whole. And the whole is greater than the sum of the parts. Which is why, I will nourish the whole by loving, listening, learning, creating, and teaching the parts around me and uniting the forces of energy that flows between all of us and all things in this universe. It is to a common home we all belong. We are the home. And I am at home. Peace is how we can keep our home clean and love is how we can make it sparkle. You are me and I am you. 'You' are nothing and 'I' am nothing because we are all the same being. But you and I exist as you and I, but it is in our nature to unite, to come together and be, as one, and as a part, in Balance. A balance between being I and we. A core of nothingness surrounded a blanket of I, and swirls of we all around it, creates a perfect spiral of soulful harmony. One that is beautiful, and radiant. Like you and I. Because we are the universe.

Fear

There is an amount of fear associated with all our emotions. Whatever we may experience, we seem to be experiencing it with a sense of fear attached to it.  Be it happiness, where we fear that it won't last, or sadness, where we are afraid that it will consume us and cause us pain. It is the fear that causes the pain in us.  When we are afraid, we are uncertain and when we are uncertain, we are insecure. When we are insecure, we undertake attempts to move towards security, frantically searching all around us, instead of looking within us. For, this security actually lies within. If we accept the emotion as it is and allow ourselves to feel it, without fearing it, we will find that it will pass and a new emotion takes over. But if each of our emotions are associated with fear- fear that it is short lived, fear that it is eternal, fear that makes us inferior, as in the case of jealousy, fear that we will not be treated justly, as in the case of anger, and the fear of fear itself- we live in a constant state of fear. Instead, we must embrace the emotion without being afraid of it. Happiness is a light feeling that brings hope, sadness is a heavy feeling that slows you down, makes you reconsider life and helps you grow, anger is an intense feeling that reflects what you are passionate about, and jealousy is a churning feeling that reflects to you your strengths and weaknesses,while fear prepares you for action.  
Hence, these emotions must be felt in their entirety without fearing them. It is not to say that each of these emotions are mutually exclusive, and that they include only the feelings mentioned here. Instead, it means that we must accept all our emotions as they are, and as we feel them, and not fear them. If you feel afraid, then be afraid. But do not be afraid that you are afraid. If you are happy, be happy. Do not wonder when you will be sad again. If you are sad, do not lose hope that you can never be okay again. If you are angry, count to ten and release your anger.  Do not be afraid that you will be judged for showing your anger and branded as a harsh person. If you are jealous, accept that your own insecurities are making you feel this way, and reflect on who you are. Do not fear an emotion that's on its way. Welcome it with open arms, be a good host, and hug it on its way out, knowing that you will see it again, and when you do, it will no longer be an acquaintance, but an old friend.

FEEL

WARMTH

A strange warm dizzy feeling envelops me as I see him build himself to go back..to go back and face the world. A strange fire spreads across my limbs and burns in my stomach, churning and giddying. Always wanting more from a world that doesn’t exist, always wanting to belong to a place that can never be reached. A fantasy that slips through those long sweaty fingers which dig deep into the cushions of an unbearable reality.

"Why do we fall Bruce? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up."

Fallen in a pit of deep sorrow, one that beckons you gently and traps you enticingly to stay and make you want to never leave the comfort of the warm solace that darkness brings, warmth that deceives you, warmth that only makes you shiver.

The warmth of conviction can never said but only felt. That frenzy between your eyes, the fire to sustain, the need to stay above, even with your feet kicking aimlessly below, can only be born out of strife and pain, one that is endured even without a face of hope.

It spreads through me, bowing its head low before rising high above and towering over all else. A bow mistaken for submission and defeat but one must lose in order to win. One must fall in order to fly. 

WAITING

Tapping my feet
Drumming my fingers
Anxiously looking around
For signs of a future
Happening that will never come
The hair is thrown back again into a bun

The frozen hand refuses to move
Around the time which never stays
Flickering lights
Anxious stares
Crawling up into space
Am just writing Shit
I don't care
Because all that I was
is all I ll ever be
and now its all gone into the wind
carried away with the dried flowers and leaves
I'm trying to sound elegant,oh would just listen please?
but all I want to do is
just get the words to come out
Stuff them up with feelings
season them with tears
polish them with obscurity
and present it like a dish
of that terrible fish that can never be understood
Yes its Sylvia Plath's expression that I have put to use
Hold up a mirror and see
See past the melancholic look in your eyes
Can you see the ugly fat lie?
or can you see beautiful gardens that u painted in your mind's eye?
It is not what you seek but what you desire
But is not what you desire what you seek?
then the world would be happy wouldn't it not?
Since happiness is what we seek?
But alas my dear, no, you're mistaken coz it is the truth that we desire

A blissful moment ruined by reason
A terrible attempt to capture and behold
For eternity we say
But who will ever know an eternity if we all aren't here to stay?

A friendly smile
A graceful hug
And protective pat
And a humble bow

Fate moves you through
Tugging you along paths you never knew
Steps on you when you soar
Pushes you up when you lag

A wonderful rainbow you see
Up above the world so high
There are no diamonds in the sky

Just scattered memories to bear
Consolations of solace

We need and we have but we want and we want
But never shall we receive more than what we shall need

A poor man once said
The rich belong to the dead
The poor man did die
But of diseases that can never be seen by the eye

The mind plagues all
Playing deceiving tricks
It is all a sleight of hand
Illusions created to help us stand
In this crowd of misery
Insignificant and small
A small tiny speck
That is all
You ever were and ever will be

In a sea of souls which float,
Ebb and flow according to His will
But He is a mere witness
Who blinks occasionally

Some shine some glow
Yet others darken as they grow
But all a part of this ocean
Tiny drops of flesh and blood
Floating above
Waiting to be born
Waiting to move on
Waiting as the sun and moon to see each other's face
Waiting for their curses,boons and
Their cures and they soon
Will move
But will be back again in the same loop
Always waiting to move
But never moving
Always waiting..
And waiting...
And waiting...........

ARIEL :-)

THE ALL SEEING EYE

Inspired by Boyd

GOTHAM CITY

BOUNDARIES....?

Peaceful... :)

The Dark Abyss

This dark abyss

I know not

But sometimes

All too well

I do have

That frame of mind

But can you catch your fish

And hope it’s big?

The dark deep waters running

Still underneath your scars

The skin burns

Aching for more

I do not need anymore

Of this I cannot say

Will you be there today?

Where are you I ask

I ask again

Repeatedly get the same answer

I do not know

What it is this life

It stores and bursts

A balloon without air

I breathe and sink

Into the dark abyss

That loud bang

Of the window

Startles me

To know

This is just…

Finish that sentence

And I will let go

But a period less

Timeless phase

Electrifies those nerves

You can’t walk straight

Into this path

That was carved

The road ahead

Destiny and fate

Or a pile of choices

You hate

Being there

Over here

You can’t stay

Anywhere forever

You will go

Distance yourself from

Come back

Yes I am here

But wait

There I am

Sitting at the computer

Thinking

Of an end

But the means to it

Can you find

Yourself

But are you lost

In thought

Of who I am

Is of an eternal quest

For those things you crave

You must pay

A price

That’s worth

But who are you to judge

What you are swallowed by

Is not in your hand

Destiny it is

But only when you sift

Through the abyss

I flow

Sinking deep

Into the shadows

Sit outside

And lament

The part you can’t find

Is what you seek

A terrible pleasure

Or pain

While it whistles

Tickling your ears

Strands of hair

Fly away

Dandelion of dreams

Soft and white

But never seen

Or caught

And crushed in the hands

Or a cruel smile

Oh yes, there is a plan

To forge and fulfil

Will never be easy

To achieve that eternal desire

Of a breezy summer

With flowers and wind

You can sing

A tune caught in your memory

Plays throughout the night

As the water gushes in

I kick and squeal

To a terrible ringing

Alert now to the green and blue

Reflections of what I once knew

Of the dirty mud laden dregs

On the freshly born earth

Weeps a new tired heart

Filled with secrets

Are the pots of gold

Never enough to satisfy

Satiate the old hunger

With your mouth

And hands are required

To reach your endless pit

You must leave the bottom

Of your rock hard base

You rise

Into that abyss

You sink twice

Height of Randomness!

The apple was hot as a cake

I never knew I could bake

A crow shat on my head

My room's purple,even my bed

I sought some refuge

It started to pour

The rain at night

Is never a bore

The horse sat down

Thats funny coz they never do

the birds flew

Jumbled and scrambled

Do you like honey dew?

Biscuits and tea are served

Would you like milk or sugar?

I like my coffee cold

But my hand feels numb

Can you hear the thunder?

I wore a red dress

Never looked prettier

Oh yes, you are funnier

Have I been here before?

No ma'am, never

Can you sit in my chair?

Park the car downstairs

Will you be here on the 17th?

Yes, my calendar is free

Wait! The sun just set

Lets eat ice cream

The car is in the driveway

There is nobody on the swing

I like bubblegum when its pink

She told me a secret

But she told everyone else

Can you hoist a flag

And be a pirate too?

My bag is yellow

The flush doesn't work

My carpet's green

Do you like Charlie Sheen?

The Titanic sunk

but the movie was awesome

So kudos to you James Cameron

I love chatting

Can you smell my hair?

Dont wear your shoes

Come home at midnight

The pumpkin's too thick

Will you have some pie?

I tied a donkey to your back

You're a fool and an ass

There is nothing like cheese

Can you spot my lucky coin?

Have you heard this song?

I have a toothache

Red blue green yellow

The crocodile ate my Jell-o

The charging is done

Leave the sidewalk

Can you hear me?

Screaming inside your head

Are you deaf and dead?

Leave no mess behind

You have no pain

Just laugh and laugh your day

Through and through

The ship has sailed

Wanna catch its tail?

Throw yourself in a river

kick and swim

Is it hot in here?

I can't keep my feet in

Do you have a plane?

The stars play a game

Sit and stare

Ramble and blabber

I cant hear you

The apple is cold

the bread is stale

Will you be my playmate?

I love the sky

black and blue

Sit on top

Wear a coat

Is that Shakespeare you quote?

The spider's web

A tangled mess

Plastic bags

You hate wars

Did your sister call?

Does this come in peach?

Lighting, one..two..three..

Thunder, thunder, thunder

Try and breathe

Hug and complete

This journey you started

Now for the retreat

Dance and sway to the beats!

Hear that loud and clear

The fog and mist in your ear

Close your eyes and listen

A thousand thoughts your heart has spoken.

NEW

A calm placid face

A restful smile

A content sigh

and a peaceful acceptance 

The darkness unleashes

Anger and pain

A river of black blood flows

Constantly feeding on your fears

Fleas in your mind

Pluck at your remorse

Surviving the guilt and hatred

A crushed ant struggling to move

It all oozes out 

Until you cant move

Happiness contained

Momentary glances

You froze the ones you felt the most

But forget the ones that meant the most

A dawning light

Wet grass and hay

A dry spell of remembrance

You are what you frame

Capture that which you cherish

Erase what you fear

It isn't an alternate reality

For there is no alternate to reality

A truth untold

Submerged in the subconscience 

Waters deep, and buried

Under an immovable rock

The Mind

Hard as stone

Blocked and walled

Can’t build a lock without 

A latch and key

Unbolt that you hold dearly

Smile with wonder

Awe and surprise

Pleased and renewed

by this strength you find

Happiness unleashed

Expressed, experienced and persevered

Frozen in this moment 

That Immortal bliss

An eternity of peace

LOST

A cold wet shiver

rain splashes across the window

the dogs howl

the crickets screech

a painful heart weeps

A dimming memory

brought back to life

Attempts of suppression are in vain

buried treasure should remain hidden

A sharp taste of salt and rust

against the forked tongue

screams of deafening power

refuse to come out 

while the withered soul

remains locked away forever

A dark dingy dungeon

it travels through the walls

searching for its master

to be  tamed, to be controlled

mourning, wanders aimlessly

An angelic face

pale white skin

peaceful as a baby

sleeping

awoken when provoked

eyes fly open

bloodshot and wide

with a malicious smile

burns you down

in a flash of anger

A cursed fire

feeds off your flesh

you pray it eats you

but it leaves you

Bleeding for more

unmending scars

that tickle as the harsh

wind blows

licking and caressing

the wounds

waiting to be cut open

The blood trickles down

stains your skin as it flows

you want it to stop

but you cant make it go

An eyeball whizzes around

clasps your neck

pulls your head

excruciating pain

you wish you were dead

The creature tears you

pulls from the inside

nerves, tissues and sinew

bites and scratches 

tightens its claws around you

All you feel is the plunging

of its sharp nails

you force open your eyes and find

they are your hands

A stab to the heart

you beg and plead

to end this dreadful feat

A final blow when you see

it dancing in your shadows

closing in

cant breathe

waiting for the void

to knock you off your feet

A thoughtless gaze

A blurry haze

wanting to know

how to regain control

but wanting to be

just the way you seem

Surviving, barely existing

floating through the stagnant air

in the dungeons of your mind

a mangled creature glides

its stench frosts  

the sealed walls

it has no escape

chained to your body 

for all of eternity

The Fallen

A shot and a high pitched scream
Is all you can hear
But not the force of the fall
Even though your near

Eyes wide open
Nostrails flaring
Cud'nt complete exhaling
As he drew his last breath

A fallen hero he stands
Reduced to an urn of ashes
Buried Below the ground
But you can't bury those memories
That haunt you dusk to dawn

A folded flag is all she gets
To remind her of what he did
Each time he was away
But now she has no one to await
Just an empty side of the bed

Someone somewhere weeps
Howls with sorrow
Cannot find the strength
To move on and live,
How can you when
She just fell
Right before your eyes
Even before you could realise
She was taken away from you
But now that she is gone
How can you be you?

Somewhere in the cold they whimper
No one to throw a blanket over
No one to love or be loved
Walking around like corpses
No one to notice whether they exist
No one to know they ever lived

Human lives reduced to tears
Some are mourned and grieved
Some a fly's feast
All the glories of the past
Only some songs are sung
But nothing ever lasts

Inspired By A Thousand Years-9

I saw you burn and bleed
My small eyes couldn't read
The pain echoing through you
As you sat there endlessly
Head in you hands
Tears in your eyes
All you wanted was an escape
I now understand
'cause I am sitting here now
Head my hands
Tears in my eyes
All I want is an escape
From you.

You taunted me with your stupid lies
I trusted everything I saw of you
But you never let me be me
I hated you and I still do
You took away my ignorance

And now that I'm aware
I can't ever erase
What I ve seen and what I ve heard

But then again
If it wernt for you
I wudnt be this today
Alive

I guess I knew all along
That you do love me
Even though sometimes you hate me

And I know now
That even though sometimes I hate you
I will always love you

Inspired By A Thousand Years-8

You can't cut where you bleed
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you

There's something inside my head
A battle raging, a million dead
Thoughts I never knew
Makes you feel like you're new
To yourself and everything else
You believed to be true

 You can't cut where you bleed
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you

A million oppositions stand
Against you, I can't fight
Even if means to lose myself
I'd loose me than you
But who am I?
And who the hell are you?

 You can't cut where you bleed
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you

We are in an endless chase
Inside this never ending maze
No way out but which way did we come in?
We will never know the end
Untill it comes but till then
We have no end to this war
All we know is that it starts

You can't cut where you bleed
You can't heal what you feel
The urge to run ovepowers you
But you can't runaway from you

But you can cut what you feel
Hide when it bleeds
Try to run even though you won't get far
But you can't runaway from you.

Inspired By A Thousand Years-7

SITTING ON THE EDGE


I did what it takes
To make you feel alright
Spent sleepness nights
Talking till the morning light

Listened and soothed
Did the best I could
To make you feel good
About yourself
About everyone else

But now the time has come
For me to go
To look inside
For a while

But you pulled me back
Held me tight
Made me promise
To always fight
On your side

And I did
Hugged you back
Gave everything I had
And even what I didn't
Just to make you smile
Even If it is for a while

We all want forever
But nothing ever lasts
I was all that I had
But now that's lost
In a spiral of fears
I can't hold back these tears

I wish you knew
I was just like you
Another human
With a lost soul

But now am lost
Neither a human
Nor a wandering soul
Not at rest
Not at peace
Merely Something in between

It is alien to you
This feat
Never seen
That I too could be
Exsiting than living

And it is alien for you
To sacrifice
Lend you hand
And save someone From slipping

Sitting on the edge
I glance,at the infinte dark space below
And the vast stretch of land
But nowhere do I see your hand

Sitting on the edge
I can't decide
Do I jump Or do I fly
Or just run and hide

Sitting on the edge
I can't feel
My heavy heart
Or my weary feet

Sitting on the edge
I silently cry
Look down and across
Hoping to see
But there is only
indesicive darkness around me.